One of the things I hated most while going through fertility treatment was a whiny pregnant lady. I mean, here I was going thru all this pain, discomfort, doc appts & procedures just trying to get to where they already were. I always wanted to yell at them & tell them to suck it up. Be grateful & you know that your pain is going to end & even know roughly when it will end. Mine just kept going on & on with no distinct end in sight.
Well I STILL feel that way. BUT I can say that I understand a little more. If you didn't have all the pre-pregnancy crap that IFers do, then maybe you would be a little more inclined to complain. Though I still flip at ANY woman that complains about being fat while pregnant - this is the time you are SUPPOSED to get bigger! That being said..
Today is one of those days! Really the last few days. I'm having trouble sleeping of course.. no news there. But along with that, today there was a lack of appetite (which is hard when I'm supposed to be eating 6 meals for the blood sugar control), lack of energy/motivation, discomfort no matter how I tried to sit in my office chair or even when I tried to take a break & lay down, diarrhea (hey if you've been with me on this journey you know I'm not holding back), constipation (yes you can have both), serious bloating/gas feeling after eating and some odd bruise-like feeling just near the top of my uterus. Plus I'm still sniffling & have a little itch in my throat from my nasty cold & cough last week. Surprisingly, I really don't have any backpain during the day still.. only sometimes at night. But thank goodness I work at home! I've been able to sit around in the most comfortable clothes I can find, wear a sports bra, put my feet up, lay down on my soft bed at breaks, and not worry about finding a deserted bathroom somewhere in the office bldg when I had to go!
Maybe if I was more interested in my job right now it would be easier to take care of at least the energy/motivation part. I'm bored out of my skull at work. I have things to do.. but I don't like any of them. I've gotten to where I'm counting down the days (54). Of course I'm excited about JP showing up.. but during the day I think more about how I will be off work for awhile. Hopefully I can come back to work a little more pumped up. My boss actually said that this week in a meeting I had with her. We were talking about what I'd be doing when I come back (pretty much up in the air because we have a lot of change coming) and she said hopefully I'll be 'rarin to go' or something to that effect.
Next checkup is Monday so I should be posting again soon. Plus I'm due for another belly shot any day now. Will try to get that up this week. I'm certainly NOT having my picture taken today.. there's no way I want today recorded on film!
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